Life Ain’t That Easy

Wow… already 2nd January 2008?!!
huhuhu…
okay, i know… it’s kinda late to wish it…
but heck no… it’s my blog, aight?!!
So, everyone… dearest + beloved friends…
me, Jamy AJ… wanna wish YOU all…
a very HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008!!!
May all your dreams come TRUE!
Hope everything going WELL!!!
More successful!
More prosperous! (prosperity’s Mc D also can! wakakaka ;p)

So, when everyone in this world bz want to celebrate New Year’s eve…
I just sit + relax + chill in front of my 42 inch tv plasma
(wahhh… takaborrr nyer… hahaha)
watchin’ "X-Men’s trilogy" (back to back) from 8pm until 1am on Star Movies channel, present by Astro (wahhh… promo nampak… kakaka)

So, my hope for this year…
hmm…
a lot… and a lot… lot lot lot… lot 10 buleh… lot saham pun bley… wahaha…
yang penting…
yang utama…
buat dulu… baru jayakan…

Berkenaan 2007 yg melabuhkan tirainya…
aku gembira dpt kuar dr GempakStarz… rezeki juga semakin bertambah… gained new knowledge, experience…
tak lupa juga… berjaya bercuti2 ke luar Malaysia bersama WENGZ… (jom jalan lagi… yehawww)
yang pasti, terasa lajuuuuuuuuu 2007 berlalu pergi… mungkin disebabkan byk agenda berlangsung tanpa disedari…

Sekian, ini saja laporan saya…
saya mau tido
nite

Jamy AJ
1.05am

Have you ever recieve e-mail saying that your e-mail address won this ONE BIG MONEY, bla bla bla, etc, etc, etc?
Hmm…
How I Wish It Is TRUE!!!
Hehehe…
Yeah, i know… it sounds SILLY! CRAZY!
But then, when it comes to one situation that you really need MONEY! (Adat manusia, duit tak pernahnya cukop! Huhuhu…)
I really WISH that those e-mails are TRUE!!
Huhuhu…
Usually, when I recieved that kind of e-mail, I directly mark it as SPAM!
But, sometimes… when I really bored… I’m kinda like… gatal² tangan… and reply those e-mail.
Kekeke…
And it turn out… they replied my respond and gave me next steps how to claim my winnings!
(Wahahaha… besh woo… layannn e-mail² ngarut ni… huhuhu!)
So, i reply and reply… they replied and replied… and usually, these thing end up with… they claiming you to pay delivery fees… parcels contain your money, certificate, bla bla bla…
Bila dah diminta duit… aku dgn beshnya, SPAM trus email² berkenaan… huhuhu…
Apo gilooo… mana ada orang menang, orang tu yg kena bayar… tul tak? Aku dulu menang Wall’s Durian Runtuh RM100,000 tu… rileks je… xde nyer disuh byr sana, byr sini… ha… itu baru kemenangan mutlak… benar… nyata… hehehe…
Okay, sambung blk psl e-mail yg kononnnya "E-MAIL KEMENANGAN"…
Kalau tak silap aku la… benda ni penah jadi kontroversi di Malaysia… siap masuk Buletin Utama TV3… huhuhu… dan kalau tak silap pengetahuan aku la… org yg dikatakan menang itu menanggung beban hutang tidak terkira banyak jumlahnya… gara-gara percayakan "E-MAIL KEMENANGAN" itu… huhuhu… apoooo la… camtu pun leh tipu tertipah… haiyaaaa…
Kalaulah aku mampu berkata sesuatu, akan ku katakan, "DoOd, mana ada benda FREE, MEWAH di dunia ini datang begitu saja!". Even aku menang Walls dulu pun pasal beli aiskrim Walls. Even orang beli nombor ekor pun, kena beli baru dpt habuan… semua benda @ dunia ada pelaburannya, ada habuannya… wassalam

The unfortunate event,

Really caused the state of mind…

And bring the CHAOS moment

And it does breaking the silence of me

wHy oh wHy

I don’t need all these CRAP!

I don’t need all these FUCKING THOUGHTS that WIPED all the GOOD THINGS in FRIENDSHIP

What more I can say?

What shall I do when things comes to worst?

Move on and let it be?

Laughing with TEARS and pretend everything FINE?

How I wish I was a kid again…

Nothing more or less… cross to mind and break another heart…

Is this how it supposed to be?

Jamy AJ™

~Life Ain’t Dat Easy~
11.20am

Been
a while… didn’t put some thoughts in here… despite of the hectic’s
life n job routine… etc etc etc… try to find some balance in
myself… glance every single frackle that might be led to another
tragedy… just bruise me inside… well, i don’t really talk openly
what’s on my mind or next agenda… it’s just that… when i think… i
should or CONFIRM that the THING is really gonna HAPPEN n make a big
impact for me… it turns to be… SCARS. Okay, i’m not saying i gave
up… it’s just that… things happened… and for some reason, things
just dont simply happened and when you realize da fact and da truth…
you gonna say, "I should know it… and I should avoid it". But then,
it’s too late right… but for some people… u might just walkaway…
either you gonna think another way… or just live with it… But for
me, I want to reach my goal… even… if i have to do something
extraordinary… I will make it REAL. With all the circumstances, da
RATIONALITY to think WISE really makes me THINK… do a lot of
thinking… but, there’s a limit… coz i know, if i push it… it
might hazardous to me…

Huhuhu… again… I’ve got nothing to do… finish translating "Bring It On… In It To Win It" subtitle yesterday afternoon… around 4pm i guess… and until today… until now… at this moment… there’s no sign of me will be giving any task… hahaha… maka, kerja ku melayari internet… msk contest sana, msk contest sini… huhuhu… yg besh nya… smlm aku terima 2 e-mel kemenangan… wohoooo… walaupun hadiah x semenggah mana… sekurang-kurangnya menceriakan hari ku yg sudah kebosanan menantikan kurje yg tak kunjung tiba… hehehe

"Common Sense… is the BEST SENSE I know of…"

Hmm… yet, as human… i mean for some people… common sense don’t really EXIST or for extra expression, ALERT… unless… in some situation that happened to the person itself… than, the person will REALIZE. Senang kata dalam bahasa Melayu nya… dah terhantuk, baru nak nyesal. Masa tu, nangis sekapal ke sekolam ke air mata darah ke, benda dah jadi… xkan ada button REWIND yg boleh memutarkan keadaan sebelum ia berlaku.

It’s actually, what i’m to say… bout one of today Buletin Utama @ TV3’s topic… bout some agency… that offer PART TIME job thru ads in local paper… ala… yg keje type² & data entry tu… ha… pernah dengar? pernah try? pernah apply?

Hmm… mmg SCAMMING… but, ramai masih xnak buka mata… xnak amek peduli… yg kelakarnya… yg memohon utk keje tu… dgn bijak bestari… menurut perintah membayar certain amount pada agency ini… whut?!!

Yg mengharukann keadaan lagi… aduan beribu lemon dibuat pada pihak berwajib… responsnya… gagal membuatkan agency berkenaan disabitkan kesalahan menipu kerana TIDAK CUKOP BUKTI!!! whuttt?!! Again?!! Come on… do something bout this…

Tp, apa pun… aku cuma nak sentuh pasal keBIJAKsanaan mereka yg memohon kerja part time ini & kenapa mereka boleh tergerak hati untuk membayar kpd agency… i mean… come on… use COMMON SENSE… logik ke apply keje… suatu keje… kita sendiri kena bayar?!! akai tadakkk ka? ni la yg dikatakan… terlalu mudah TERPEDAYA dgn ads yg dpaparkan… mementang ler… tulis @ dlm ads tu… seminggu bley dpt RM550… bla bla bla… i mean… pikir logik la… ada ke keje yg kita apply… kita yg kena kuar modal sendiri?!! lepas tu… dgn sewenangnya, percayakan agensi ini… akan dpt berikan kita kerja… come on!!!! da tentu la… dlm seminggu-dua… agensi tu da slamat KENDURIkan duit yg kita byr @ dia…

Maka, moral of the story… sblm anda naness x berlaku… dlm buat sesuatu… esp yg membabitkan penggunaan WANG… pkr la masak² + goreng²… klu ya pun niat d hati mahu mencari pendapatan sampingan… agak² sblm bertindak utk mempercayai lubok emas + perak + gangsa…

Sekian, warta perdana dr @ Jamy AJ, local news…
wahseiii…

As usual… i just LOVE browsing QUOTE @ www.quotationspage.com

And I found this interesting QUOTE by Ken Rockwell, Your Camera Does Not Matter, 2005

"Your equipment DOES NOT affect the quality of your image. The less time and effort you spend worrying about your equipment, the more time and effort you can spend creating great images. The right equipment just makes it easier, faster or more convenient for you to get the results you need"

So, what i’m trying to say is…

Some people just KNOW how to POINT other people LACKNESS, DISABILITY, NEGATIVITY… either it’s your own family, friend, lovers, people

Why GAVE UP to something that you already OWN… i mean, after all the good things, bad things, ups n downs… all of it… why did… have to be PUT AWAY?

Looking for the PERFECTNESS? Come on… we are HUMAN. God does create us PERFECT… as HUMAN but we never PERFECT in some kind of way… Learn to accept each other… build the TRUST… LOVE and what so ever the BEAUTY FEELINGS God gave us… but when it comes to ADMIT something that we think… not good ENUFF for us… do we ever think back… are we GOOD ENUFF to act the way we act to THOSE people that we already hurt their feeling? are we PERFECT ENUFF to judge other people for their IMPERFECTNESS?

To leave thing without CERTAIN REASON. Without knowing the REAL SITUATION, why being LEFT behind… what kind of HUMAN is that? pointing other people faults, but didnt realize that the person itself also doing the wrong thing… thought you are the PERFECT human? think again… d’uh!

Why can’t HUMAN… i mean, we… we just being OURSELF… no more these… no more that… just be OURSELF… is it so HARD to express your ownself to what you are? afraid of your own shadow? afraid of your own lackness, disability etc etc etc?  Comen on, grow up! The REAL PICTURE is suppose to be OURSELF… our ownself!

Do respect other people, other’s feeling… than you’ll realize how HUMAN u are… how great you are… how wonderful you…

Dis week been rough week for me…
Wit my mom got admitted for almost a week, wit some few things that been disturbing my day, other people’s life @ stake & for myself… i just wish myself INVISIBLE…
But, as usual… like or not… sometimes, something that we try to avoid… just simply happened… we just could not walk away without being involved…
Hmm…
Sometimes… when we try to be SELFISH to the others… we feel BAD about it…
But, did the others… think the same way too?
Do they bother? even bother?
When it comes to some situation that u think u need to be surrounding by your friend… and suddenly they are not there… when you need them the most… who did u turn to?
Doing thing by myself… would be the GREAT thing…
Coz for me… i dont have to deal with anyone, anybody…
Being accused for being choosing people to be with… made me wanna spank the person… why bother? if you just happened to exist when you all alone by yourself? after all these times, these days…
Don’t try to put blame on other people… you should think before saying something that could generates more complex answers…
Deal with it… if YOU… ONLY know how to mock other people… well, other people have their own RIGHT to mock you back!
Well, here goes… another arguments… another thoughts

Pagi tadi, lepas sahur (lebey kurang pukul 5.15am)… aku dok dlm blk smbl tunggu Subuh… langsir tingkap aku mmg aku singkap… memberi laluan angin hembusan awal pagi masuk… smbl duduk atas katil… aku ambil Sony mp3 aku & on… mungkin sedap sgt angin hembus… tergerak hati aku nak jeling ke tingkap… tetiba, nmpk byg putih… ah, sudah! masa tu memang tak pakai spek pun… mls aku nak capai… aku cpt2 alihkan pandangan mata… tp, dlm hati… betul ke apa yang aku nampak? tak puas hati… aku pandang balik… kali ni, lembaga putih melambai2 siap ngan bunyi efek angin… aku dah istighfar… trus kuar blk… dok kat krusi ruang tamu… kat luar, mak & kak ema yg tgh tgk TV pandang aku lalu bertanya, "Apsal?". Aku diam dulu. Smbl konon berlagak takde benda berlaku. Tak smpi 5 minit,
        aku bersuara… "Ada ‘benda’ kat luar tingkap Amy. Kat semak dpn sana"
        Kak Ema:  ‘Benda’? Benda apa?
        Mak: Kain kot?

aku diam. Pehtu, sambung…
        Aku: Gi arr tengok.

Kak Ema & Mak pegi jengah bilik aku through tingkap yg aku ckp…

    Kak Ema: Tak ada apa pun.
    Mak: Orang kot…

aku diam… trus terbantort dok dlm blk… tp, xsmpi 5 minit aku msk blk… kali ni, aku jatuhkan tirai langsir… ONkan sony mp3 aku… azan subuh pun masuk… laju aku amek air sembahyang & trus sembahyang… bagai ada semangat, aku teringin nak singkap balik langsir… ye lah… awal pagi… elok2 buka tingkap luas2… agar rezeki masuk… kali ni, aku pakai spek (hehehe)… tahu aku nampak… kain buruk berwarna putih tergantung kat tengah semak bersama tali pita construction yg ditiup angin! WTH?!! Humpehhh… buat penat je aku CUAKKK!!! hahaha…

Hmm… it’s actually dari semalam lagi aku dah takde keje nak dibuat… list subtite yang bakal aku buat masih lagi pending… so, listing yg sedia ada sudah abes aku translate… bermakna aku bley hu~ha~hu~ha… seharian juga (smlm)… dari pagi smpi petang… aku cari software Video Editor & converter… download… converts & edit video masa WENGZ™ gi cuti bangkok hari tu… da sprh jalan… supervisor da perasan aku dok senang~lenang… aku da xdpt nak ngelak lagi… maka, mula dberikan kerja2 copy~mengopy trailer utk company’s client… bermakna… aku harus berhenti mengedit video personal aku… sbb thp cache pc sgt la agung klu buka byk applications… dan hari ini… sekali lagi, aku tak punya lagi kerja… jadinya… aku didatangi 4 title DVD yg harus dilekat2kan B-certs, hologram & price tag… humpehhhh… da jadik budak kilang aku seharian… mengadap 4 title yg berjumlah 300 keping setiap satunya… 300 x 4 = 1200 keping utk title saja + 1200 B-certs + 1200 hologram + 1200 price tag… demmm… feels like a MACHINE… human machine… da siap yg tu… lps lunch… 20, 000 DVDs Transformers movie plak kena urgent packing… ya muhammad… mmg ler humpehhh… lenguh tangan tayah citer la… aku dah cam nak terajang supervisor aku… pkl 5.45pm settle packing Transformers… aku trus dok tmpt aku blk… rupa2nya melambak-lambak pop up y!m menyala2… hahaha… maapler kengkawan… aku jauh dr pc… nak reply… ada yg da sign out… huhuhu… tepat 6pm, aku trus sign out… berambus pulang… penat + kejar nak blk uma + buka posa… mmg tersangatttt ler penatttt…